[Closed] Penelopa and her husband

@evolvingyourman_ivcr4j

Crying was an outburst of emotions. We hugged each other for a long time. I told him I loved him. We have resolved all his doubts and fears. I studied cuckolding for a long time. Almost a year.  There are three basic types:
1. The husband knows but he is at home while his wife is having sex elsewhere
2. The husband watches the bull having sex with his wife. He is sometimes allowed to masturbate.
3. The husband participates in a sexual play. He sucks the cock of a woman's lover, to make it hard for her, licks her clit during intercourse, cleans cum from her with his tongue after ejaculation.

I want just this last one. Interaction, the three of us. Bulls (endowed men) are a special story. Those who are straight or more straight than others don't like it when the husband has a functional penis. They like the penis (sissy clit) to be small limp and not able to erection and to look like a girl. I want what. My husband wants a similar one.
He started drinking testosterone blocker which will allow us to create a small cute sissy clit. I bought him some pairs of lovely silk women's panties.

I also have no idea about cuckolding. does it involve the man being fucked as well? Or is it just a sucking thing. I hope that i didnt interfere or embarrass you.

@liam

It depends on the wife and Bull. It can be fucking, but it is rare. The husband mostly licks and suck.

As a lady does the sight of your man in that position turn you on?

@liam

You think, do  I'm excited when my husband sucking a big bull's cock? Yes that is very exciting for me.

You seem like a kinky open minded lady. I know this is completely inappropriate to ask considering that this part of the forum is just to talk about you cuckolding your man but would it be fine if you, as a lady, helped me out a bit with what i said in this part?

https://www.evolvingyourman.com/community/everything-else/pegging/#post-454

@liam

I love pegging.

@penelopa

Kevin and I have talked about number one and number two. We have discussed picking a guy up at a bar, seeing if the three of us hit it off and then going back to a hotel room together. From there, Kevin would watch or perhaps let us into the room and then go back down to the bar until we call him up. Both of those sound extremely exciting to me but I don't know if we would ever go through with it. I wonder if the fantasy is more exciting than the reality might be.

@evolvingyourman_ivcr4j

The reality could be better. But it's usually great and a little worse than fantasy. Remember what FLR looked like as fantasy, and what a reality. Phase two, which we talked about is when the husband thinks only of his wife's pleasure. This includes wife's sex with other men. Sex is for the wife, not for husband. Husband orally satisfies the wife, occasionally but only occasionally having sex with her if she wants to. Many wives at FLM do not have sex with their husband at all (including myself). The husband must support wife to have sex with other men, even to prepare her for sex. I know this is very sensitive, it can cause his jealousy. I personally think than you and Kevin might try the first variant, to he was waiting for you at home.
If you want sex with other men, you should lightly stop having sex with your husband. Then he will not be able to compare his sex with you and your sex with others (he will ask you to compare him and the others). So better believe me to he do not have sex with you, but as I always say every woman in FLR or FLM needs to change husband so he can meet her needs.

Me and my husband went through that first phase. I was always honest with him, I didn't hide anything, but I didn't even burden him with details. A testosterone blocker will lightly shut down all his male functions and libido. He will having a woman's libido, more a desire to satisfy her/his wife or bull than to have her orgasm. My husband will become the new gender between a man and a woman more female than male (Sissy).
In my mind, and in the minds of many straight bulls, is that if a man sucks a penis then both he and the bull are bisexual (I do not like bi man). It will be female, then it's natural to suck a penis.
I now have a strong need to talk to people who understand me at least partially. My husband and I are in a very sensitive phase.

Penelopa and Emma, I find this set of posts quite interesting. I would guess that you, Penelopa, and your husband have a relationship that differs substantially from some following this blog, in that it may be more advanced, extreme or eccentric. I have a lot of questions and comments. I hope that you don’t find them too intrusive or off-putting and that the anonymity of the forum is more than sufficient to permit your continued sharing.

Could you say more about the circumstances surrounding your decision to embark on a FLM. Was orgasm control  and power transfer something he craved or was it more of disciplinary measure or a punishment for his not meeting your needs ( I think you mentioned masturbation porn and thinking about other women?) Emotionally, for you, was this behavior hurtful or simply unsatisfying?  At the outset of the FLM or before it did your husband have insight into the behavioral and emotional changes that occurred with his frequent masturbation?

I would be curious to know more about the recent conversation between you and your husband about cuckolding and sissification. You said he “cried like rain”, and it was “an outburst of emotion.” What do you think was your husband’s emotion and why did he have it? Has cuckolding been a fantasy of his or only of yours? Do you not consider him already a cuckold since you state elsewhere that you have been with other men when you are away from him and he was locked? Were these facts a part of the conversation between you two recently or has he always known about the other men?

Is sissification your fantasy, his fantasy or a shared fantasy? Would you consider saying more about his thought process before he decided to proceed with sissification and his use of a testosterone blocking agent? Is the agent medically prescribed as part of a gender transformation process or is/are he/you purchasing it on the internet? Is there concern for unintended consequences of hormonal therapy?

You have mentioned that your husband has a small penis and that he can’t satisfy you with it. Would he like to be able to do so? Does he like his penis? Does he or has he felt burdened by the expectation that he be able to do with it what is not likely very possible (because of his size). Has he been apologetic? Did he, does he pretend it’s not the case? Have you two engaged in small penis humiliation or teasing and did he enjoy this and the acknowledgment of the obvious? Have you guys ever try a penis extender to allow him to both fill the role of a bull and remain submissive or at least continue retaining, and perhaps meet some of your needs without changing who or how he is in the relationship?

Would your husband consider signing up for this forum and posting? Does he post elsewhere?

Finally, and this is directed at both you Penelopa and Emma, what are the differences between teasing, humiliation and disrespect.  I would guess that many men like to be teased and find humiliation a turn on to some degree and all of them have some need to be respected nonetheless. Some may fear that letting go of control in their relationship may inevitably lead to where yours may be going.  Penelopa and Emma I am not implying that either of you are disrespectful of your partners but really wondering how, when you have consolidated so much power in a relationship that you manage to remain respectful as boundaries are pushed and how is it a man maintains self respect as he goes down this path?

Thanks in advance for any consideration of these many questions.

JD

@jd

Ours is more of a partnership, if we decide to go down the route of that @penelopa describes it would be a gradual change that Kev & I would both need to embrace. Penelopa certainly takes things to the next level and if that suits their relationship, great. Ours is different, as yours would be. Boundaries, respect, all of these things must be honored in a partnership. Everything that Kevin and I do is for the greater good of our relationship and to encourage closeness. My initial reaction is to be repelled, pushed away by the extreme nature of what she describes but I understand that this would be a good fit for some. While the level of relationship that @penelopa describes isn't likely for us, perhaps some level of play would be interesting for us as we learn about the limits of compersion. 

@evolvingyourman_ivcr4j

In our relationship, the change towards cuckolding is gradual. I had occasional sex with other man. My husband knew that. I didn't hide anything. Now my husband has started MTF transition, I will not have sex with other men until he wants to engage in my sexual relations with alpha men during the transition.

@jd

Frequent masturbation and pornography lead to sexual neglect of a woman, loss of energy...
Over the weekend, we talked about the technical things about cuckolds and about sissification.
He and I agreed:
No sex with other men in our house, in our bed
I'm his mistress and boss and no one else
He will only do what I tell him to do
I'll use contraception
If I get pregnant I will have an abortion
After sex we both return home
No humiliation, just the pure sex of the three of us

My husband easily accepted the sissification. He has not had sex for a long time, does not hate his penis but does not love him. Because of his small penis, many women mocked and belittled him. His request was to be as feminine as possible with tits but no surgical procedures.

Sissification was first my fantasy, then shared fantasy and now it's started. MTF transformation of my muse is led by doctors. Now it's only on testosterone blockers. He will soon start taking estrogen as well.

He cried about the emotional charge that causes change, the expected transformation. I expect these emotional discharging in the coming days and months, especially when he starts taking estrogen.

Thanks for sharing Penelopa. The details help me to understand where you are coming from. Good luck to you both on this journey.

Wo,w there is a lot of area covered in this post! I feel like I need to do some studying of this topic just to have something to contribute.