Denial is enough

I haven't seen this discussed and thought I'd share something that we use in our relationship. We have been married 39 years, yes 39. She is my goddess and queen and has been since we met. She has never stifled who she is and is the most powerful and confident woman I have ever even heard of and thankful she loves me. 

Our sex life if one would call it that is denial, me not even being allowed to see or touch for the most part. She can call me on the phone and bring me to orgasm just by her telling me I cannot enjoy her beauty. 

I have had an orchiectomy so I can't fuck her, I have been on mtf hrt since 2012 so not a man, I wish some days I were as id so much want to be her lover and penetrate her deeply and feel the ejaculation into her womb. Those days are long gone so I enjoy the denial. 

This is the key. The denial has to be the way that you two have intimacy, an active erotic exercise where she actively refuses you sex with her. So your cock can be seen by you both to be hard near her pussy but you are not allowed to put it closer to it. You ejaculate in front of her telling her how you love the thought that your cock will no longer enter or even touch the pussy you are looking at and yes, you want her to deny you, 'God yes please, deny me'.