after hedonism, after many relationships, I had 2 yrs I spent by myself, and loved it, just before covid, then an ex asked to move in for financial issues, it helped with my own, and we are just room mates now. yrs prior (2016) during her depression I moved into locked chastity at my own interest (avoiding haggling with her and begging, giving myself time to think before acting). but those 2 yrs I was happy, went out with friends in chastity, even walked a young lady to her car. without the cage on, I know what my hedonistic hindbrain wanted. but I got home and entertained myself. zero guilt.

I've been with many, and for me, sex was a sport. not a relationship enhancement. they say a novice sub has "no limits" (1:no permanent scarring ), well, 10 yrs and I still say that when someone "dares" to push me. I dont push back, i freak them out with my compliance. i get into a haze (subspace?) and accept it. I enjoy being pushed, and now push myself, exploring "asocial" behaviour. 

Now with AI I'm even pushing further. went 8 days with denial and actively pushing the sissy haze. 

Ask me anything, 
I overshare.