Hi Emma,
My name is Raul. I’ve been following your website for some time, and I’ve found a lot of comfort in the things you write. My wife and I have a cuckold and humiliation-based dynamic, which we’ve been building for a while. The thing is, while our sex life is active, there’s something that’s been on my mind lately. You often mention the importance of a strong sexual foundation outside of the dynamic, and I’ve been thinking a lot about that.
To be honest, we don’t really have that. The only way my wife can feel any sexual attraction toward me is through humiliating me—whether her bull is there or not. I enjoy it, don’t get me wrong, but it’s also left me wondering if this is truly all there is. I’m typically locked for most of the week, much like your husband, and she has a very high sex drive. So often, she’ll ask me to stand by the bed while she plays with her vibrator, talking down to me and making humiliating comments about my size or how I can’t fulfill her needs. It’s hard on my self-esteem, but I’ve learned to accept that it’s where we are right now.
Our sex life has never been great, honestly. I’m only about 4 inches erect, and she’s told me she doesn’t really feel much with me in that way. So, we don’t do PIV, and I’ve come to accept that too. What worries me is that I’ve somehow come to link her dissatisfaction with our sex life to my own arousal. When she humiliates me, it turns me on—especially when she’s with her bull. I know she enjoys being dominated by him, and part of me feels glad she’s able to explore that side of herself. But, if I’m honest, it also hurts because I know I’m not the man she’s sexually attached to anymore.
So here’s my question: is it enough for the cuckold fantasy to be the foundation of our sex life? Is it okay that we don’t have a baseline of sexual activity between us that isn’t tied to this dynamic? I’m worried that we might be missing something important, but at the same time, I can’t imagine not feeling that arousal when she’s with him. It’s a strange feeling, but it’s what turns me on, and I don’t know how to navigate this.
Thank you for your insight, Emma. I really appreciate the work you do and how much I’ve learned from your blog. It’s sparked many deep conversations between us, and I’m grateful for that.
Raul
Dear Raul,
First, let me start by acknowledging your vulnerability and honesty in sharing your story. It takes courage to open up about such a deeply personal part of your relationship, and I can hear the concern and love you have for your wife woven into every word. So let’s take a deep breath and unpack this together.
You and your wife have built a dynamic that works for both of you in many ways—you clearly derive immense pleasure from the emotional and psychological aspects of your cuckold relationship, and she, in turn, finds fulfillment in the sexual experiences you facilitate and witness. There’s passion, intensity, and a deeply intertwined power exchange at play, and that is beautiful in its own right. However, the question you’re asking isn’t about whether this dynamic is working—it’s about whether it is enough.
The Importance of a Sexual Baseline
One of the foundational beliefs I hold is that, in any relationship—especially those involving power exchange and non-traditional dynamics—there should be a core sexual connection that exists independently of the kinks and the structure you’ve built together. That doesn’t necessarily mean it has to be conventional, nor does it mean it needs to involve penetration, but it should be something that belongs only to the two of you. A space where intimacy isn’t reliant on external players, humiliation, or fantasy fulfillment.
Your current reality is one where your sexual self-worth is built upon humiliation, which is something you both enjoy, but it also seems to leave you with lingering emotional weight. You get aroused when she degrades your size, your role, and your ability to be her sexual partner—but I also hear you wondering if that is all you can be. If your entire sexual presence in the relationship exists only through the lens of inadequacy, then where does that leave you when the cage is off? When you’re not in that headspace? When you just want to hold her, touch her, and connect without the barriers of your dynamic?
That is where the baseline comes in. Not because you need to “fix” anything, but because emotional security and sexual security are often intertwined. Having a sexual foundation outside of the cuckold fantasy means that, if and when the dynamic shifts (and trust me, dynamics always shift over time), you aren’t left feeling unmoored.
What If the Bull Was No Longer There?
This is an important question to consider—not because I believe your wife will one day decide she no longer wants a bull, but because it forces you to examine the structure of your sex life. Right now, she is sexually fulfilled because she has an outlet that meets her needs. But what if circumstances changed? What if her bull moved away, or the arrangement no longer worked? Would she desire PIV sex with you then? Would she still be able to connect with you intimately if there was no external presence reinforcing the dynamic?
If the answer is no, then that is something worth exploring together. Not as a threat to your current happiness, but as a question of long-term sustainability. It is possible that she genuinely does not crave PIV with you, regardless of the size difference or the presence of another partner. If so, then what does sex between the two of you look like outside of the cuckold framework? Could you explore new ways of touching, new forms of sensual connection, or even non-penetrative forms of intimacy that are just yours?
The Balance Between Fantasy and Reality
I often say that kinks, when they are truly sustainable, should be like seasoning rather than the entire meal. They enhance the experience, deepen the flavor, and make everything more exciting—but if the entire dish is just salt, it becomes overwhelming. You love the humiliation, the teasing, the thrill of her choosing another man for her pleasure—but does Raul, the man, also get to feel desired? Do you get to feel wanted beyond the role you play in your shared fantasy?
If the answer is yes, and you are truly fulfilled as you are, then that is valid and wonderful. Every relationship is different, and there is no universal prescription for what a sex life should look like. But if there’s even a whisper inside of you that craves something more, then it might be time to sit down with your wife and have an open, judgment-free conversation about what intimacy means outside of your kink.
Imagining Your Ideal Sex Life
Let’s flip the script for a moment. If you could craft the perfect balance between your cuckold dynamic and a more foundational sexual connection with your wife, what would it look like? Would you still be in chastity, but also have dedicated time for affectionate, non-humiliating touch? Would there be a way for her to engage with your body in a way that isn’t based on comparison or degradation? Would she be open to trying new forms of pleasure with you, even if PIV isn’t part of the equation?
These are all questions worth considering because they put the focus on you and your needs—something that submissive men, especially those in FLRs, often forget to do. Submission does not mean silence. It does not mean ignoring your own emotional well-being. It means embracing the full spectrum of your desires and finding ways to honor them within the structure of your relationship.
The Cuckold Fantasy Has Taken Over – Or Has It?
I encourage you to bring this conversation to your wife, not as a complaint or a demand, but as an exploration. “I love what we have, and I am deeply aroused by our dynamic. But I also want to make sure that I’m not just playing a role—that we have a real, lasting sexual bond that exists outside of the fantasy. If our cuckold fantasy has taken over, how do you feel about that? Am I Raul, your loving husband or am I just a cuck to you?”
It’s possible that she’s never even considered this perspective before. Many women in cuckold dynamics assume that because their partner enjoys humiliation, it must mean they don’t need any other form of intimacy. She may see just how much the cuckold fantasy has turned you on and assumed this is all you want from her. Humans are complex creatures, arousal and pleasure can be layered. You can love the humiliation and crave moments of genuine emotional connection. You can enjoy the chastity and want to know that she sees you as more than just the small, locked-up, cuckold husband in the corner.
Your journey is valid, your feelings are valid, and this conversation is one worth having. You and your wife have already shown that you can communicate about taboo and vulnerable topics—why not add this one to the mix?
Wishing you clarity, fulfillment, and all the delicious teasing you crave.
Much love, Emma
Evolving Your Conversation:
- Outside of the cuckold dynamic, do you feel emotionally and sexually connected to your wife? If not, what would help you feel more desired?
- Have you and your wife ever discussed what would happen if her bull was no longer in the picture? Would she still crave an active sex life with you?
- If you could design the perfect balance between humiliation play and intimate connection, what would that look like for you?
- How does your self-esteem play into your arousal? Do you feel like your confidence is tied exclusively to the cuckold fantasy, or do you have sources of personal confidence outside of that?
- Is there a way for you and your wife to explore new forms of sexual intimacy that reinforce your bond as a couple, rather than just reinforcing your roles in the dynamic?
