Confessions of a Size Queen: I Love Our Cuckold Marriage

I really enjoyed and identified with this post from ShyLittleSizeQueen, she gave me permission to repost it here with her bio, links and some photos. With no further ado, here is a little about ShyLittleSizeQueen and her lovely marriage dynamic:

Hi, I’m ShyLittleSizeQueen! I’m a married woman with a petite (4’11”), fertile body and a little secret. On the outside, I’m shy and well-mannered – a loving mum and wife in a wonderful marriage. In bed, however, it’s a different story. I’m a size queen and I’m pretty straightforward about it. Small dicks do nothing for my pussy, so I only spread my legs for the really big ones 🍆

Spoiler: My husband is not one of the big ones 🙈

I’m a real amateur and live out my kinks while working and parenting. While I post a lot of content on Reddit, you’ll find the really good stuff, longer versions of videos, handmade content just for you, be it panties, secret stories, sexting, keyholding or honest penis reviews on my Fansly or OnlyFans. The content is the same on both, for the sake of simplicity 😊.

Take a Look Into Our Life

This is a long post, but I had the feeling it might help some people to understand how cuckolding can work in real life, so please bear with me. After reading lots of threads in this subreddit, I have come to the conclusion that many, or the majority of people here, are still fantasizing about cuckolding but have not yet taken the plunge.
I have identified a few “stages”:

• Some people do not have a relationship to start with. My recommendation would be stepping back a few steps (stop watching porn) and trying to build a meaningful relationship with a woman. Cuckolding, in my opinion, only works between a couple that has a stable and loving relationship. I have my own opinion on how to approach a relationship with a specific fetish like cuckolding in mind, but that’s a topic for another day.
• Some people are in various kinds of relationships—just fell in love, long-term, or married. I think being married is a very good base to dive into cuckolding, but of course, there is no obligation for that. These people have not yet come out to their spouse about their fetish. They are also fantasizing and hiding it.
• Some people are in a committed relationship, and they are already talking about cuckolding.
• And some people are active in the lifestyle and probably already know the things I want to elaborate on.

It’s totally OK to be at different places in the lifestyle, though some men are very, very obsessed with certain topics, to an extent that looks definitely unhealthy to me. I receive disturbing DMs occasionally, and some people seem to be really lost in their fantasy.
Today, I want to shed some light on how cuckolding really works—at least how it works for us. It’s obvious that other couples do it differently, and I would be interested in how it works for them, but I think there are some common denominators that are definitely not clear to many cuckolds, especially the wannabe ones.

The point is that no one is horny all the time. No one wants to be humiliated all the time. No one wants to be denied all the time. No one wants to be in chastity all the time.
Now, you might say: NO, that’s totally wrong! I LOVE being denied 24/7 for the rest of my life!
But the probability that you are in a very horny mind space at that moment is very high. When men (also my husband) are very horny, they really believe it! They want it! He has asked me to deny him penetration and make him give me oral every time we have sex. For basically forever!
That does not work for me. And I know it won’t work for him either. I think the number of couples that really go pussy-free for a longer period—like over a year—is very, very small.

BUT it does work for an extended period of time if we agree on it. And this is basically the essence of the game. You play it intensely, but you have breaks! My husband has gone pussy (penetration) free for over three months, and it was a fun experiment! He was not allowed to penetrate me. He was not able to wank, to edge—his mind space was not as horny as it was when he decided he wanted to be locked. I made sure to tease him every day, edge him—but after a certain time, he just became depressed. You cannot ride that high forever.
The reason for it is that sex—real penis-in-vagina sex—is massively bonding for a couple. You can smooch, cuddle, lick my pussy every day in the morning and in the evening, all of it. But it does not replace the powerful bonding that takes place when you actually have raw, passionate sex.

So we decided to stop our experiment and fucked. Lots. We totally left the whole cuckolding topic behind us (the first time after years) and just had sex. Suddenly, even his premature ejaculation stopped, and he was back like in the old days and fucked me really good and long. Eventually, that phase lasted one or two months until just a “minor incident” brought us back into cuckold space very quickly. I don’t remember exactly, but I think I said something like I missed being filled by a big cock when he entered my pussy—and bang—we were back, and still are.

But it’s not only about denial; it’s also about the other topics, like humiliation.

My husband really likes to be humiliated—not like a dominatrix does (it’s not my style), but more subtly.

• Telling him I am horny, but not for him.
• Telling him I will visit my lover in the evening.
• Telling him I enjoy my lover more.
• Telling him my vagina belongs to my lover.
• Telling him I want him to use a condom.
• Telling him I love him, but for sex I will go to my lover.
• Telling him I cannot feel him after I had sex with my lover.
• Telling him he cannot satisfy me like my lover does.
• Telling him my lover will stay the night… You get it.

It looks like us cuckold couples are constantly performing cuckolding, but that’s simply not happening. We have moods, children, lives, work, stress, and more. There are times where the lifestyle is turned down a bit.
We don’t totally stop, because I still have a lover who texts me, and the mindset has found its way into our daily life, of course. I won’t stop myself from reminding my husband that I prefer a nice, bigger dick when a good opportunity arises, but there are days where simply nothing happens. Nothing sexual.
There are days I try to tease my husband, but it simply does not work. Because he is not in the mind space. Busy with work or he just wanked and has post-nut clarity. That’s reality.

If you are wanking all day, you might never or seldom leave this space. You might ruin your orgasm or similar just to continue being horny. But in real life, you cannot wank all day (if you do, it might indicate other issues). You have to work. You have to invest in a relationship, in family life. This is when you just don’t feel it. Women’s cycles might have them very horny for half of the month and less horny for the rest.
It’s not like in porn. It’s not like in your wank captions. This is reality.

Now for the interesting part: How does it work for us? How does the reality look?

Our cuckolding routine consists of recurring phases of build-up and calm-down. When I plan to have my lover over, I might or might not tell my husband. But I will very well hint that something is going on. He is not stupid. He sees me texting more than usual, finds my wet panties, finds my pussy soaked when he touches me or goes down on me. He has a very fine radar for these things, and I don’t even need to be very bold. He is always on the lookout and will find out. Resulting in him being horny as hell! I love it!
He gets very curious, but I never tell him what I’m planning. I think sometimes he likes to search my phone (I have consented to this) just to find the graphic stuff I exchange and talk about with my lover.
This is the phase where I almost always deny him penetrative sex. I show him how horny and wet I am, but I tell him I don’t want his penis to penetrate my body. That I’m saving it for my lover. I tell him that I prefer my lover to him. That I never want him to cum inside of me again. That his dick does NOTHING to me.
This is the time where I really turn up the humiliation. Makes him sooo wild! 😈 These are the days where he awakens me with his mouth on my pussy almost every day.
Recently, he went down on me when we were shopping and in the changing room. It was risky as fuck – the shop was busy, but waiting was no option for him. He needed that intimate contact. Sometimes my lover and I decide to lock him in a chastity cage around the days where we meet. Also provides the base for very fun games!

Then, after some build-up, it finally happens!

Not only is my husband HORNY as fuck, but also me and my lover are! When my lover and I finally meet, we are wild! It’s an explosion! He is rough, and I want it! Not only my husband hasn’t had penetration, me neither of course! I want that man! He is taller and stronger than my husband. I want him to force his massive dick inside me! When he sinks into my body, it’s heaven for me. Nothing feels better than this! Nothing! We fuck like crazy!
Sometimes my husband watches, sometimes he listens. Sometimes he is at work and suddenly receives some intriguing pictures or videos 😈
My lover fucks me through the whole house. Afterwards, we calm down.
My husband goes down on me until my lover is ready again. Or he fluffs him to make him ready. If he is not present, he will go down on me and taste my lover when he returns home (sometimes very fast when we send him some imagery!).

Our cuckold sessions often take multiple days, but not always in the same order. For example, on the first day, my lover might visit me in the morning after my husband left for work. The day after, we have a session where my husband is at home.
It has happened that my lover stayed the night and we slept all three together in our marital bed. This is my absolute favorite—and my husband’s as well.
I love being woken up by the huge dick of my lover entering my wet pussy in the middle of the night. Trying to be silent not to wake my husband. Being loud enough, he eventually wakes up.
Night sex is so intense when I’m still sleepy. I always orgasm when my husband goes down on me afterward and sink back into sleep.
Having my lover sink into me again the next morning, while my husband makes breakfast for the three of us. Morning sex is so intimate. Heaven ❤

We have had my lover stay the day, hang with us in the garden. Vanish when my husband looks away or is in the pool, just to be found by him somewhere, getting pounded hard.

We might continue like that for several days. When my lover leaves, I often vibrate my husband to an orgasm in his cage, or give him a handjob—just to immediately start to make him horny again by telling him I’m already looking forward to my lover again. I tell him, I might never unlock him. I tell him that I’m catching feelings for my lover 🥵 I’m going full-on.
But after several days, the heat is decreasing.

Care

This is the turning point! This is the time when I do a 180-degree switch. My husband is very roughed up after being denied and humiliated for multiple days or weeks. He often is in quite a dark space of mind after that high.
Now I reconnect with him. We cuddle. I tell him how much I love him. Repeatedly! Over days! We have sex—lots of sex. He cums inside of me. I love it and I love him.
I thank him for making this life possible for me. I tell him that he is the best husband I can imagine! And I mean it. After all, he is my husband. I love everything about him. Even his dick. It’s true! Cuckolding is a game and we play it very well. But even when in the deepest humiliation mode, I still and always love my husband. And he knows it. We both know it. This is the most important part of all this. And if it were not like this, it would not work out for us.

My husband means the world to me! ❤️

Until, after a few days or weeks have passed, I get a text:
“Feel like being properly fucked for a change? 😈” And the circle becomes full circle.

Why I Have a Lover, Not a Bull

I see so many posts or comments about cuckolding that focus on humiliation or aggressive “alpha” behavior… but honestly, that’s not what makes it work for me or my husband at all.

My lover is a really chill guy, and outside the bedroom, our relationship feels a lot like a friendship. It’s mostly sexual between us, but he still spends time with us before, between, and after sex. I really don’t like aggressive men or those who call themselves “alphas” — I avoid them like the plague.

My lover, on the other hand, is simply self-confident and carries himself well. When my husband is around, he stays close to me, while my husband tends to be a bit more distant. He’ll pull me in with his arm, constantly touching me. And with him being 6’3″ and a bit over 200 pounds, the contrast between him and my 5’6″, 150-pound husband is… noticeable. 😊

We laugh a lot, and we’re super touchy and smoochy — which often leads to a second or even third round soon after the first. But what he really masters is making my legs weak with just a casual comment. He’ll say things like he “owns me between my legs” or tease me by encouraging me to be intimate with my husband… but reminding me that I’m not allowed to cum unless it’s with him. 😰

Last Friday, I woke up to a text saying he’d be visiting Sunday afternoon while my husband was out with the kids — and that he’d prefer if my husband didn’t penetrate me until then. Woosh. Wet from 7 a.m. Friday until 3 p.m. Sunday, when he finally sunk into me. 🙈 There was no chance I’d have let my husband — who was also super horny that weekend — enter me. Every time he got close, all I could think about was what my lover wanted. And of course i obediently enforced it!

He does this all the time — making little demands of me or my husband. He keeps us both on edge, turned on and unfulfilled, until he arrives to take all that built-up pressure off me. 😊

But never is he unfriendly or makes demands toward my husband. Somehow his game is making me prefer being sexual with HIM instead of my husband. That does not mean my husband is not humilated – he is. A lot! But it’s mostly ME who humilates him because my lover planted a seed of an idea into my brain.

“Let’s have him wait outside today”. “He can have you with his mouth, but you will wait for me to make you orgasm” “I prefer he does not touch you with his penis this week” “I’ll visit you after lunch while he is at work” “Let’s call him to listen in” 🥵 And I obey. And my husband feels the consequences.

Of course, my lover also takes action like just swinging by unexpected or pulling me out of the room to fuck me somewehere else. When my husband wants to follow, he shakes his head and says “You wait”. In general he tends to just “take me”, no matter what we were doing. Asking my husband for a coffee. Deep inside me when he comes back. Last summer, we were at the lake and all of us prepared to get into the water. While my husband went first and jumped in, my lover decided different and pulled me back into the cabin instead while my husband stayed in the water alone. That was hot as fuck.

I feel like this is what people often miss about cuckolding. It’s not about blatant humiliation or power trips — it’s about someone who knows how to create desire, anticipation, and chemistry for everyone involved. My husband isn’t jealous; he enjoys the tension and excitement it creates between us, too. Ok, maybe he is jealous, but he (not his cock) is constantly included into the game and that is what makes it exciting for him.

I just wanted to share how it can work out when done right — playful, confident, respectful, and full of sexual tension.

Disclaimer: Of course this is my view, on our dynamic. Others can work different. The lifestyle is not one-size-fits-all. Also, please excuse any grammar or spelling errors, English is not my native language.

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